How can two years ago seem like such a long time ago and at the same time feel like it was just yesterday. Two years ago I was having an amazing time with my best friend. I finally got to meet her in person. I finally got to hug her and to make the bond that we shared that much stronger. I was able to hug and kiss on her children that I have watched grow in pictures. I love those 3 like they are one of my own. I feel like a have a very distinct bond with each of them, as special as the one that I have with their mommy.
Friendships are fleeting. People come and go out our lives. Some stay for years before moving on and others linger longer than they should. Some people come and go before you really have a chance to get to know them. If you are lucky enough you will find that one person that will change the way that you look at life, the way you look at yourself. These people are special because you can not always agree and it's okay. You can have that difference of opinion and the next day everything is back to the way that it should be. They know all of your deepest and darkest and even though they may not agree, they are still there for you when you fall. Forgiveness is key and always accepted.
I have not always been blessed in the friendship category. My first one shot herself in the head when we were freshman in high school. I have my few back home that I may see once a year if I am lucky. I have friends that I have made along the way that live all over the US but we barely talk. I am here for when they need me but that is about as far as it goes. It really doesn't matter where they live, it just matters that they are always there. Good, bad, or just because it is Monday. How awesome is that to know that no matter what the day holds you know that person is always there.
Sometimes I need to remind myself that even though she is always there and in my corner, I need not to always dump my problems on her shoulders. I know that a lot of what happens is because I allow it to happen. Just because she is there, I don't need to abuse that friendship. The last thing that I would ever want it to lose that direct line to her.
I am hard headed, stubborn as they come, and I know I can be the biggest bitch when I am pushed to a point. I am not religious, nor do I care to be, I and overly sensitive, and boy do my feelings get hurt easily. I will do anything for anyone, to the point where they abuse the generosity (that story is for another time) but if a situation was to arise like that with someone else, I would help in the same way I did before. I guess I don't learn from my mistakes. I trust, I give the benefit of the doubt. At the same time, I make mistakes, HUGE mistakes, but I try to learn from those.
It takes a special person to love the person that is me. I am forever grateful for the ones that have stuck around and love me for the beautiful disaster that I am. I couldn't be more thankful to the one that is the other half of my heart and understands me like nobody else in this world. She is a sass, brash, no nonsense woman that keep me in my place. She doesn't sugar coat, even though sometimes I want her to but I am glad that she doesn't. She is the only one that I know exactly were I stand with her. I love everything about her and I know she loves every imperfect thing about me....even if it feels like she is talking to a massive brick wall.
Love is in the eye of the beholder. Love is what you feel and what you express. I can't say I love her. It is infinitely more than that. Sometimes that kind of love cannot be put into simple words. It's a warm feeling, it's a sense of security. It's everything you could ever want it to be; and I have that with her. Thank goodness for that.
